Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Transitions and No News
Well we are busy this week going back to work for the school year, myself as a school psychologist and my husband as a high school AP Science teacher. Our son starts third grade on Thursday and our daughter starts kindergarten next Monday. I wish Colorado did not start school so early as August is truly our hottest and sunniest month in CO. I am sad to say that we have heard no news on our precious 11 year old dog. As I replay the story of her dissaperance I am now convinced that she was taken. And most likely taken by somone with the intention of keeping or selling her untill they realized how old she was. She has a collar on with ID tags and phone numbers. It makes no sense to me why they would not have called us by now. I continue to pray that she is in safe hands and that they did not choose to dispose of her. We may never know what her fate was but hopefully with time I can find some form of peace and acceptance. On another note, we have had no news on the adoption. With recent bad luck falling upon our family it is all to easy for me to think the worst, that is, that when we finally get a call it will be to say that we were not approved for this or that reason. If this happens we will be out much money which we cannot spare and many many months of waiting. The crib is set up in my daughter's room and she is now asking "Why is it taking so long". I have no good answer for her because I don't understand it either. It would break my heart if I had to explain to my children that we will be needing to switch countries, redo paperwork, and start the waiting all over again. I am working hard to maintaine my confidence and to think positive despite all of these reservations. I am not one to believe that God is meant to answer every single one of our prayers or that with faith all things will work out, on the contrary I think that misfortunes happen for a reason, some lesson perhaps that we need to learn. After all: "God does not call the qualified, he qualifies the called."