We have experienced some misfortune today, and without sharing the details with the world, I will just say that I have found myself in the position of asking "Why me?, Why us?, Why? Why!". Grief and loss is a powerful thing, it can pull you down and some people never get back up again. Today I found myself wrapped in fear and despair. I let it in, felt it's power, and then kicked it back out again. I know to many people who have let grief, sadness, and fear overtake their lives. Somewhere along the line I decided that I was not going to be one of those people. I am good at researching and this is what I do when I face a problem. I look for a solution and I keep looking until I find one. As a psychologist I tend to believe that things happen the way they do for a reason, that A leads to B. But I also fully know that very bad things can happen simply because you are in the wrong place at the wrong time. Afterall, I am pretty sure that God never promised that life would be easy. For whatever reason bad things do happen and when they do we can't just give up.
"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved."
Helen KellerUS blind & deaf educator (1880 - 1968)
Found your blog via google. We are beginning the process of a Rwandan adoption through AWAA.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to let you know that I understand where you are coming from. We were recently dealt the blow of our second stillbirth (at 23 weeks of pregnancy).
And while I know that God could have prevented it, and that he has the whole world in His hands, I also know we live in an imperfect world. And, though I could have never imagined He would allow this devasatation to happen to me AGAIN, I still choose to believe that He is still ALL GOOD. And that His heart breaks just as much as mine does.
Praying for you and whatever situation you are going through . . .
Kelly Smith
Thinking of you......hope everything's okay.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to read about your struggle and pray that God's mercy and goodness would be evident to you through this.
ReplyDeletegrace and peace,
adrianne