My heart is heavy. I have been stressed and really can't put my finger on why other then that my soul is uneasy. I wish I could do more, be more, have more so that I could give more. I look around and see those who clearly live their lives for themselves. I am not sure at what point it happened, but I am not one of those people. Some would say I probably need to seriously spend a little more time taking care of myself and maybe they are right. But how does one do that when you have seen some of the worst places to live in the world? There is a qoute that I used to have at the end of my email and it said this:
"You are not here merely to make a living. You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, with a finer spirit of hope and achievement. You are here to enrich the world, and you impoverish yourself if you forget the errand." Woodrow Wilson
Whether you like Woodrow Wilson or not, that is some insightful wisdom. Indeed I believe that we are each here on earth for a reason. Sometimes I get frustrated that others do not have the same passion for the orphans of the world that I do. I was frustrated today when my eldest son said they voted at his camp for which organization to hold a fundraiser for. He campaigned for the orphanage in Haiti but lost out to nearly everyone agreeing to instead raise money for a well-known non-profit in the US which I know for a fact receives a ton of money from corporate donors. It is not uncommon for people to comment to me that there are needs here in the US, my response is that children do not die of starvation or live their lives with curable disabling conditions in the US. But perhaps I need to take a step back, take a deep breath, and remind myself that we are each here for a reason and a purpose. I hope that whether it be through this blog, through my travels, or through my talks with others that I am able to open up the eyes of others to see the plight of orphans in the world. While in Haiti we were touched by a mission that is greater then ourselves and one that we are firmly committed to. I can't give out the details now but in time I believe that it will all work out and that miracles will happen before our very eyes.